Okay, three, two, one, let's jam!


What's Going On?

1. Okay so college starts again in five days. I don't have money for the books I need or the rest of the money for my tuition. I'm pretty much fucked. I really should not blame others since...Fuck it, I'm blaming them. My mother for one. She used the $150 in my savings account a number of years ago so that she could pay for propane in a house she barely lived in. Thanks Mom, that would have paid for my books bitch. My mother again, she hasn't paid my grandparents back for all the stuff they've done for her. She spends all her money on beer and cigarettes. Thanks for ruining my life mom. My uncles because they mooch off my grandparents for money more often than not and it's putting my poor grandparents in debt. Great thanks you assholes. My grandfather. He spends money like it grows on fucking trees. My grandmother who is 69 years old still works because otherwise we'd lose our house and cars and everything because my grandfather thinks that money is endless. Idiot. I also blame myself for fucking up in high school and for not taking more of an interest in scholarships and shit before this. For not saving money when I had the chance. For being just another mooch off my poor grandmother who doesn't deserve this shit.

2. I'm seriously thinking of leaving. Not moving out of my house...just leaving. Going to wander and die. Whatever I mean it would be better than being a burden on my family. I have no natural talents, I'm not anything. Everything I do is a struggle and I'm pretty sure it's because of my upbringing and that's what SUCKS so badly because I can't drag myself out of this stupid hole that was begun by others. I just dig it deeper.

3. My bestest friend Camy's going to come see me the weekend after this upcoming weekend. I'm excited! That's probably the only good thing going on.

4. It's almost 5am and I have to be to work by 2pm for an eight hour shift but I'm sitting here journal writing with a migraine. No idea why. See this hole of mine? It just keeps getting deeper. Insomnia!

5. I hate my life. Emo? Sure. Fuck you.


What's the Weather Like?

Who cares? The world's falling apart.

Featured Deviant

, she's coming to see me!

Other Things

Look, I don't need you. He doesn't need me. We don't need each other. It doesn't matter.

Quote of the Moment

We're all in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars.

That's all Folks!
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See ya Space Cowboy!